Fear brushing the edges of my heart as I faced becoming a mother.
Fear brushing the edges of my heart as I faced becoming a mother.
My vessel no longer commissionable to holding anything I don’t choose.
October begins my descent into darkness, internal and eternal.
My heart opened toward you, cathedral doors swung wide in welcome. Reds and blues water across the floor— purple etches love.
I learned to call it the soul bell. She still rings when something resonates profound.
I imagine I wouldn’t leave if I ever stepped into one in person. How could I abandon what has already changed me— what has built an inner sanctum from its very presence?
I’d choose to relive this year again because I had my little girl. I switched paths out from darkness into love, and that shift held a near death experience when she was born. Leaving behind a toxic dynamic was another initiation. Both were the most difficult ordeals of my life, yet everything turned out for the best.
The mind is a cathedral.
I can appreciate this fear I’ve held dissolving and being replaced with a devotion to being real, human, and happy to be here.
I dance humility’s grace, one foot in pain’s echo, the other in rapture’s pulse.